And therefore the Lord [earnestly] waits [expecting, looking, and longing] to be gracious to you; and therefore He lifts Himself up, that He may have mercy on you and show loving-kindness to you. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) are all those who [earnestl wait for Him, who expect and look and long for Him [for His victory, His favor, His love, His peace, His joy, and His matchless, unbroken companionship]!
As I sat here all day, in my house, by myself...I was hit, hit with clarity. If you have ever had that moment, then you know what I am talking about. If you think you haven't, you have and you will realize it by the time your finished reading. I sat and read and worked, but still, did a run down of the past few months...I went from nobody even remembering I existed to having all these so called "friends" back to just the few real "friends" that I keep now. The lesson that I have learned is that, I had changed, and never in a million years thought people would take advantage of me. Oh, but I played a part too, I just didn't realize it until I truly confronted myself. It is hard to look at yourself in the mirror at what you have allowed other people to make you become and it was not until today that, I received full CLARITY! You see, I remember the way I was just 2 years ago, happy, excited about life, loving being a new mother and then my world crashed, just as I felt recovered from the previous 5 years. I thought that when I started this business that it was going to be the "crutch" I needed to help me get through this crash and pain and fear. And I was happy for a while, I wasn't reading my bible anymore or going to church and I started feeling bad about that.
Then the money ran out....SHOCKER....the only people that have stuck around is that small handful! So, I decided and realized, that I had participated in allowing other people make me feel bad for no reason...(people that is known as MANIPULATION) and since everyone is gone and don't call, I am good with that. I am a God fearing woman and I lost my way for about a year and now that there are no distractions (manipulators) in my life, I am finally working on me. If you had any feelings when you read the quote above, read it again, write it down, say it aloud to yourself every single day...because God is TRUTH not MANIPULATION!!
"Expect To Receive! To Receive, Expect" - - - That quote gave me the clarity I needed and have been on bended knee begging for it for months and just like that, I got it. But, here's the fine print my friends...just because you had the clarity, does not mean everything is going to be rainbows and sunshine, nope, this is the start of the journey and the first few steps are the hardest...let go and you will have unbroken companionship and a blessed life in long run.